Monday, February 26, 2007


I don't consider myself a dreamer. I've always viewed myself as a logical, rational gal. I think, though, that I have dreams; I'm just too afraid to voice them...

So, since Jana invited us to Dream on CAC, I'm going to go ahead and share some dreams.

Sheesh, I've been writing this post for two days- I'm just having a hard time putting some of this out there. Ok, maybe if I start with the practical side it will be easier for me : )

Goal type dreams:
  • de-clutter house and help us all be more organized
  • do some decorating so that I can feel grown up (and not like a college student who is actually approaching her 10 year reunion)
  • do a better job of saving money and managing finances
  • take better care of myself: lose weight, exercise regularly, have time for journaling and meditation.
Struggling with:
  • I had planned to sit the IBLCE exam this summer. I have viewed earning this credential as a step to another dream (will write that one next), but I'm now wondering if I should bother with it. I'm having a terrible time doing things that I want to do lately. So even though I want to take the online courses I need in order to be able to take the exam, I am somehow lacking the get up and go to do it. The early application needs to be postmarked by April 13th, so I have some serious thinking ahead.
  • I'm still thinking about applying to a Masters of Public Health program. There are many hurdles. I don't have a medical background, and many of these programs are intended for doctors, nurses, dietitians, etc. Having the IBCLC credential would help. I also need to study and take the GRE- can we say ick! The other hurdle is choosing a program- I don't want to move my family in order to do this. Can I do it long distance? Can I drive to Tampa and attend classes there? How do we manage financially?
  • Should I just forget those two ideas and honestly go after becoming a baker?
  • Want to do a better job at being present for my children and my husband. I don't get things done, not because I don't have the time, but because instead of doing them I'm hiding. I need to do a better job managing my time.
  • Trying to be a more peaceful and positive person.


melba said...

This is tough because you want to do something...but it seems like you are unsure of what that is (career wise)
My husband is in the same place. Any change in his career would require him to go back to school/get training and that is a risk...and cost money.

It has taken me years, but finally have found my bliss through creative blogging and art, but I am still open to other avenues.

I wish for you clarity of mind and peace in your heart.


PS Thank you for sharing your dreams!!!

Jana B said...

"I don't get things done, not because I don't have the time, but because instead of doing them I'm hiding."

I can identify with that statement SO DEEPLY!!!! Sometimes I'm not even sure what I'm hiding from... the clutter? The responsibility?

I'm curious what the IBLCE exam would qualify you to do... I've never heard of it before.

Maybe the first step would be to research what reputable colleges have an online Masters of Public Health Program? I'm sure there ARE colleges out there with that degree, the tricky part is just finding them! LOL

Either way... I wish you the best of luck!!! :o)

cadencecadence said...

Is the ILBCE exam connected to one of your passions? You say you would have to take courses for it. Are you interested in the material for the courses?

Your profile says you're into "my kids, sewing, scrapbooking, Judaism, lactation education and support". If it's for one of those things, maybe it's something you need to do to have some dedicated YOU-time. Or is it something else that you don't care about enough to list here?

nyjlm said...

The IBLCE exam is the exam to become a lactation consultant :)

Jana B said...

So, who does a lactation consultant work for? Would you be contracted through a hospital or midwife's office?